I actually tried to write this immediately after the convention. . . but with every day that passed once I got home, I felt it was nowhere near complete. Isn't that exactly what happens though? You want it to be perfect, you know you have more to say but the words never come. So you wait. You wait for the revelation no matter how long it takes and then the excitement about it has worn off. . . well, now that PPOC National Convention is just 2 months away, I figured I had better get this post published!! Oh, the shame!
Post Convention Hangover
Nope. It's not what you think. Despite the fact that there are most certainly drinks involved during the LightMatters weekend, it's the slight feeling of separation anxiety because you've had so much fun seeing old friends and meeting new ones as well. It's back to work. but there's more.
It's the feeling of pride that you've accomplished something for the very first time. And oh, my friend, it will NOT be the last time.
It's the feeling of "I can do this" when your friends give you a pep talk with a fist pump.
It's the feeling of heart flutters when your friends say "job well done".
It's the feeling of "I belong" when you all join the group photo that is such a huge tradition. Never feel like you don't belong.
It's the feeling of satisfaction, knowing you've tried your best and you're still over the moon for your friends' success.
It's the feeling of "next time, that will be me up there". And yes, it will be.
It's the feeling of "together, we can move mountains" It takes a small village and then some, to organize an event that means so much to our profession.
It's the feeling of "I matter because I am part of that village." Never underestimate what you have to give to this village.
So many feelings. It's like returning to your childhood home and seeing all of your old friends. Some have become more successful, some have moved back in with their parents, and some, well, you just want to invite them to be part of your own family.
This past weekend was one I will never forget, I grew by leaps and bounds and learned things about myself that I had never known. I learned that I AM enough, just as I am. That I CAN do things I am afraid of because I have the support of so many. That I have much to learn and I'm totally ok with that. I love being a part of something so big and important.
PPOC is to my business, like butter to my toast. My PPOC friends are nothing less than the peanut butter that accompanies that toast.
Cheers friends, to another successful year with the PPOC